Time doesn’t heal

Time does nothing but tick. Count the days that go by and it will never change the fact that waking up without you and every constant reminder that you are gone takes me right back to day one. Over and over again. I will love you forever and miss you for always.

I don’t want to do today.

I dont want to get up or even wake up. This day is too much for me to handle. So is tomorrow and so was yesterday. I don’t want to go to a cemetery to visit my daughter. I don’t want to plan a party she won’t attend. I don’t want to have this hole in the pit of my stomach that aches so bad. I don’t want to smile or laugh. I don’t want to talk to anyone at all. I don’t have a choice.

I want you back.

I want to hold you again. I want to smell you and i want to know what you look like now. I want things to be the way they use to be when there was so much hope and we were complete.

I wanted you to be healed. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to watch you blossom.

I miss you.

Your mark

What a beautiful little girl. So precious to this world. You left your mark on us and you’ll never even known it. Strength in every move even through all your struggles. You fought and worked so hard through the pain and wouldn’t show it. We watched you push, watched you fight. Watched you break through. Watched and wished, wished and prayed for what only God could do. Make you whole, make you happy, make your body strong. Now left so confused because we never knew all along. His true plan was to take you, home to him. Away from hurt, away from pain, away from all of this sin. But we miss you so! We Never got to watch you grow into a beautiful woman. But you did get to grow, you grew a set of wings. You fought through the pain now only beautiful things is what your surrounded by and you feel no pain. You left such a mark , now we are left to gain. Gain your strength, gain your smile, above all gain your love. Although we miss you so much we know your above. Watching over us and giving i your love and might. Knowing this one things always brings me a smile. You get to spread your wings and Fly high baby Fly!

-Our Angel Celeste

1/17/15