I have so many thoughts going through my head. I feel like I’m on a roller coaster. Sometimes I’m ready to conquer the world and plaster the smile on my face that’s needed to give me just enough strength to convince myself that i can. Somethings though, I’m stuck. Literally. I can’t get past the road blocks and the realization hits me that she’s gone. Again. Like it just happened and I’m paralyzed in grief. It’s unexplainable but writing and expressing helps me get it out. Putting into words how i feel at that moment. What triggered me and above all remembering how much i love my baby girl and just want to hold her but i can’t. This is my way of expressing that to..her. And just maybe there are people that can relate. I’ll post things on my personal Facebook sometimes but as much as i love the responses of strength and love, i feel like I’m asking for pity. It’s the opposite. I do it for strength and I just need to express myself. So here i am. My expression, my words and thoughts. My blog. Not sure how well this is going to go so here goes nothing.
The 'After' Me 
This is the bravest thing I have ever seen..
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Thank you so much Tina!! You know it’s hard to open up. So easy to keep the walls stacked up high. Thank you for being by my side and for following my journey.
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Star, I am so proud of you for stepping out and doing this. I’m proud of you for being real. I’m proud of you being strong even when you may feel so very weak. I will be praying that you know how loved you are and choose to believe what is true when the world tempts you to believe lives. Thanks for allowing me to be a part of this journey with you.
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Thank you so much for your support. As much as everyone has seen me go through there are so many things i have a hard time talking about without feeling vulnerable or breaking down. I’m glad i finally started this new journey and an outlet to express what gets so confusing in my head. Thank you for reading and for your words of strength.
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